Fitness Diary


This is a blog I wrote as a guest blogger for Vapor4Life.

Dear Diary,

I smoked for about 30 years. For almost as long as that, I have wanted to be a runner. I have always had dreams of running, and know that deep down inside me there is a runner. It’s a very strange thing to put into words, but I believe that each of us has this person we were meant to be inside of us. But, our personal circumstances have not allowed that person to come out. I am not afraid to say that I do not consider myself a person who finishes what she starts when it comes to fitness, losing weight, eating right and giving up the stinkies. If it’s uncomfortable, I want nothing to do with it. I let myself off the hook and never hold myself accountable.

When I began vaping in April of 2011, I knew it was my ticket off the analog roller coaster. Fast forward a few months. My amazing and beloved mom passed away in late August. It was a terribly stressful and sad time for me but I did not slip up even once. I realized I had actually “finished what I’d started” for the first time in my life. It was an amazing feeling to know I was done with analogs forever.

On New Year’s Eve just a few weeks ago, I was reviewing my year, looking at my life, reminiscing about what my family had been though with my mom’s passing and out of the blue, I decided I was going to run a 5K. I knew it was my mother whispering in my ear. I just knew I could do it and I wasn’t scared.

I knew that I needed to start slow. I found a program called “Couch to 5K” online. According to the program, in 9 weeks I’ll be running for 30 minutes straight which equals 3 miles. A 5K is 3.1 miles. I am on workout number 3 of week 3 and am doing great! It is not easy…but then again, what in life is?

I have three 5Ks that I’m hoping to run in March. After I do that, I may be hosting my own 5K and 10K run once I see how they are done. I want to set up a non-profit in memory of my mother. The run will be called “Kathy’s Clown” and I hope to have it on Mother’s Day 2013. The proceeds will go to help Scleroderma research and Chronic Lyme research.

Now, you may be wondering, what the heck does all that have to do with vaping? I truly don’t think I’d be doing ANY of this if I were still smoking traditional cigs. I really don’t. So, it’s a thank you to V4L and a challenge to us all to reach deep down inside and do something you’ve always wanted to do!

I’ll keep you updated on my journey! Keep me in your thoughts and prayers!


3 responses »

  1. Michelle,
    That’s awesome about running! I bet you will do great and I look forward to your next update (post race)! What a great idea–to run for scleroderma and chronic lyme research. I wish I could participate.
    I found out that I was positive for Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever, Babesia, Epstein Barr Virus (Mono) and probably Bartonella. My titer for Lyme is still CDC negative, but the doctor is positive that I have Lyme if not by my test results than by my daughter’s (who would have had to have been 4 months or younger when infected by a tick if she didn’t get it from her mother based on her IGG results). Due to my chronic fatigue (probably due to my perpetual mono if nothing else), I have trouble keeping in touch with people. I have a supportive aunt, one friend in town who is job searching out of state and may soon leave, one more supportive friend who moved to Florida two years ago and one friend who thinks I am a hypochrondriac and this is all in my head (this despite the positive tests–she’s dealing with her own demons, I think, but it still hurts). There is no one that I know of who knows at all what I am going through but right now, I feel very blessed to be alive. For the RMSF alone, there is a 20 to 30% death rate when left untreated (which, without a diagnosis, I was for the past 9 years but I think the biggest risk is right after infection). I also tested positive for Lupus, which the doctor tells me will go away after proper treatment for my Lyme and RMSF. He thinks that if they had diagnosed me with that before, I’d have been given steroids for treatment which lower the immune response and the RMSF would have killed me. Also, our insurance is threatening not to pay for any of the treatment I’ve already gotten all the while I keep in mind that all 4 of us will eventually need treatment. I am telling you this because I think you do know what it’s like and I feel very, very alone.
    I hope you continue to use your blog to educate people about Lyme Disease and other tick borne diseases. It’s epidemic. Not only I was never diagnosed by about 40 doctors of various specialties including about 10 general practitioners I had seen previously, none of them even referred me to an infectious disease specialist. There is a lot of ignorance in the medical field about tick borne diseases. I diagnosed my own rash being petechia (RMSF causes this) after watching an episode of “Mystery Diagnosis” on the Discovery Health and shared that concern with 2 doctors including one who was an LLMD and neither one of them tested me for RMSF. It took another LLMD who immediately recognized the rash and told me it was petechia before I could tell him. Doctors are simply not being trained properly. My diagnosis was written all over my body and face. There are many people who have already lost their lives…including two of my own children in utero. Thank you for being a voice on this. God bless you!

  2. this post has pumped me up again. i fell off the c25k train last week. my allergies have been acting up- but this post has motivated me to just get up an do it. starting monday i’m back on the human hampster wheel!:)
    you rock michelle!

    • Elizabeth, thank you! I do my first 5k Saturday. Run for the Rescues – you should do it with me! I don’t run the entire thing, not able to just yet but I don’t care! I have done the course 2 times and at least I know I can finish it despite a horrible time. Its all about the T-shirt right? Lol!

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